Rather sad recently...
Every morning woke up will have to get angry...Either over my ah ma or my new maid..
Getting angry over my ah ma is cos she is doing thing that is not so her..even the basic...she doesn;t want to do it properly..haiz...Duno is angry or worry that i raise my voice ba..But..I just know that I am very angry and sad after seeing her do all those action that she should not do...At least she dun do it in the hospital...haiz...Why is she doing all this thing at home..she totally look like a changed person...why why why...
My new maid also keep doing thing wrong.thing that i teach her duno for how many times she do wrongs still..give her a timetable dun follow.the most angry thing is..i talk to her, she dun understand she also says yes mdm..haiz...how i know she dun understand then..haiz..
Every morning seem to suck...
And today..even afternoon suck..my mama forget that i need to eat lunch..haiz..so yeah..no lunch at home...haiz...
Ytd my sis also make me so angry and hurt..till now i am still very angry..I tout there are something we hold for each other.but ytd..you break one of them..i am angry initally..but now no longer..for what i get angry..i will just let go of that things we always do together seem you will get angry when you do it..is okey...
Recently..when i cry..i realise..cry for what..i also cry myself, clean my tear myself then get back to face everything together again..haha..so lame right..then cry for what..haiz..
Talk to huan and ah bu about my ah ma thing lah..but is like a very long story..they nv see the situation before they also very hard to understand lah..yeah..so back to square one..alone..
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